Ashley (she/they) @AshCarnelian@mastodon.online

If I was a smarter girl I would have included a selfie in the first tweet

#introduction
#introductions

Hi! I'm Ashley, a semi-out semi-closeted nonbinary demisexual trans girl. I'm 31 years old, autistic, disabled, and probably ADHD.

I'm a writer, a lapsed media critic, and aspiring tabletop RPG designer.

Will write about games, politics, music, the need for us to invest in trains and get rid of personal cars before the climate kills us all, and whatever else I care about any given day.

#introduction

I have very complicated feelings about impostor syndrome and trying to navigate trans spaces as an overweight person unable to access HRT

Sometimes I can't tell if something is boring or if I'm just not in the right mood for it... But I'm pretty sure The Revenant is just really boring.

Tried watching The Revenant, a movie that I was recommended a long time ago by (reads notes) my abusive ex? oh no, that doesn't bode well. But ah well it's on Netflix, so I gave it a try

I promised people that I was gonna take a walk but motivation is haaaarrrrdddd

Sleepy

I miss playing TTRPGs

I feel intensely sad and depressed

The secondhand embarrassment I feel at certain moments in Sabrina is SEVERE

The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina is one of those shows that is simultaneously very bad and very good

I dozed off and woke up with the thought “vaccines are just virus fanfiction” no idea what it means going back to sleep now zzzz

quietly screaming :)

I’m so stuck. I need to be included in things. I’m literally begging. I need friends and community and things going on in my life and I don’t know how to dig myself out of the hole I’m in

I’m not okay

The good news is I put in a load of laundry, I made food, and I’m about to take my meds

The bad news is that today is a nightmare of anxiety and loneliness inside of my head

Good morning my anxiety is through the roof this morning

Correction, it’s over 8 hours. And the audio is too bad to continue, I can barely pick up what is being said half the time. Made it five minutes in

Just clicked a 6 hour long video about bomberman, will report back when I give up on it (I don’t expect to make it very long)

Imagine being given pass after pass after pass and still not managing to get your behavior under control before you get banned from all the big fgc events

That's too much

Apparently the theatrical version is 2.5hrs and the director's cut is 3hrs